This year has been a great year in several aspects, but it has been my worst in one in particular: my fitness.
So embarrassing, I don’t even want to start talking about my Day 1 of my new workout regimen on my own Juliefit site.
So embarrassing, that negative voice taunts me when I see my screenname “juliefit”.
So embarrassing, I don’t want to talk to anyone about it. Fortunately, I can talk to everyone right here! (the logic can’t even… but I think that’s funny enough to laugh!)
I have a list of excuses I can point out: Back issues at the start of the year, school stress, work schedule increase, blah blah blah. Truth be told, it was all an inevitable excuse avalanche waiting to happen. I think I can summarize it all best in
one two a hyphenated word: burn-out.
I’m not excusing myself here, I’m only expressing how I feel. I am disappointed on many levels, and I think others can relate to that feeling… and I GET it. Life happens, injuries happen, priorities change. However, I’ve learned that I have to put fitness back into my top priorities (not THE priority, which would be, of course, my family), that when I feel negative about my health and self-image, it negatively affects the things I’ve put ahead of it. Nope, gotta fight it. When people get burned out they have two options: To accept or to STOP. Take a breath. THANK the “break”, and fight against the currant again.
I don’t want to share my before pictures. The before pictures are burned into my mind when I’m failing at my tricep pushups, fanning the fire inside to push through another 10 seconds. I don’t want to share my before pictures. I’m scared I won’t do it. I’m afraid I’ll excuse myself out of another program, another round. I don’t even want to take REAL before pictures. Bleh.
It is so embarrassing to have these thoughts. So much so, I HAVE to announce these feelings because I have to do what I know is right: I have to finish this workout, I have to kick-ass at the program for the next 60 days. My finish date is February 7th. AND I HAVE TO MAKE IT. I HAVE TO DO IT!
As of this post, I am on Day 3. I’ll do a weekly recap (on Juliefit and relink here) because I know better than to overcommit. When I’ll do videos is yet to be seen.
I’ve got this.
On the bright-side.. I expect my 30 and 60 day pics to be amazing — THEN I’ll show my stomach again :)